We're nearing the half-way point of the documentary, and... wow. It disgusts me. I never liked Sarah, but respected what she has accomplished. Now... again, wow, disgusting.
She said how her girls had called and told her they are standing by her and loving her. That's great, and is as it should be. She then proceeded to say that because they could learn from this, she is a great mom. She didn't say that she was a great mom (and I believe she has been), and now her girls can learn from this... she was saying that this is an example of her being a great mom.
She also claims the first $38,000 was for a friend. Lots of us have friends who might at some point desperately need money. That is tragic, and I'm sure we would do what we can to help them. But you cannot move into the realm of deception and shady "business" deals (which the reporter also did) to help them, especially not involving other people like Andrew. If you truly cannot help a friend, you cannot do it. Sarah needs to accept that this is a part of life.
Sarah is great in that she tries to change the world- but she doesn't want to be the change, as the saying goes. She simply cannot accept that some circumstances in life are what they are. For example, to steal a years-old example from her "Simple Lessons Learned the Hard Way"- if you are a mom whose daughter is in a play and you have WORK across the pond, you might have to miss it. If you have the means, its great that you can fly back for one night to see it. But she cannot. She does not have the means but is millions in debt. It might be sad that she cannot do it all, but guess what Sarah? That is what we all deal with, every day. People make sacrifices to support yourself, and she has not. She finds it terribly tragic that children are starving or parentless- but she cannot even bring herself to live like non-royalty, nonetheless come anywhere near grasping what the people she "supports" go through.
Just this past weekend, a friend had to miss a very important event in his child's life because we were traveling for work. He has to work to support his son. This. Is. Life. I have always, for years now, thought that Sarah implies that the extravagant things she does for her girls are part of being a good parent. Extravagant gestures are nice, but not what makes a good parent. I have always felt that the way she says and goes things, she implies that people who don't do those things are not as high and mighty at parenting as she is. Sometimes doing the responsible thing is what is right. Perhaps this would have been a better way to teach her children.
Also, she keeps referring to herself in the third person. She is trying to communicate that the girl in the tape is not who she wants to be, but that's her. Come on now, you are not ten. Do not speak in the third person.
I was also disgusted by her blaming her being tired after months of work. Sarah, that is how all people with jobs feel at the end of a long week. It's often how they feel at the end of a long day. They do it to support themselves and the ones they love. Yea, it sucks to have to feel that way. Welcome to the world. She feels sorry for herself, she says, because she was so tired. Poor dear.
Beatrice's first reaction was "Why would they do this?" Sarah corrected her "Why did I do this to myself?" Something is seriously wrong if the first place Beatrice placed blame was on the reporters. Yes, I believe what they did was unethical. But Beatrice seems- and has always seemed- so wrapped up in Sarah's bubble that the blame is always elsewhere. That is how I feel Sarah has always portrayed her children and Andrew. Not only as if they support her, but as if nothing is ever her fault.
Sorry if anything isn't clear, I am typing as I watch with other people.
